_{Have you ever had one of those days where you just were lost?
Today is that “lost day”. Emotions, thoughts, etc run though my mind. Should i be with her? Could i do better? Am i not good enough? Could she do better? Too many questions for my mine to comprehend. Yeah, im smart but not that smart. Sometimes i think bein str8 is easier then being a lesbian. Girls are bitches. They are vicious. They dont knwo when to say no, or stop what they are doin. Epic fail is the name of this blog because, i epically fail at this whole being gay thing. either i make a girl too happy that when we break up, shes so in love with me that she dont wanna get over me, or i get fuked over and im the one left wit all the feelings. So now, im just goin to put half out. Its no longer goin to be a one way street relationship. Im always the one giving my all for someone. Never, both. I just wanted a girl. A girl to make me happy. Someone to hold me in her arms. someone to kiss me. someone to put their arms around me and tell me they love me. thats all i want. nothing too big right? ughh…im stickin to the uber butch girls. no more, soft butch, or femmes for me. too complicated. i want either a girl to take FULL control, or no control at all. im the FEMALE in the relationship. so im lookin for the STUD. i blog too much bout random shit. its weird. i have no life to do anything else besides sit on the computer, writing blogs. but i guess its a good way to vent ya know?
Right now im in a monogomous relationship kinda wit this one girl. idk really waht it is. thats jut what we classify it. shes technically my ex. but its w/e i still have feelings for her and shit, but they are starting to fade. but weird thing is, they fade, then come back, then fade then come back.bad thing on my part i know, but its hard to keep a steady relationship, when the girl lives so far a way. :( im ending this blog now, cuz it makes no sence, and i epically failed at my first blog on this thing. but alrighty}

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[Baby.Face]